Happy Birthday Lady V

One day, I was looking down from the balcony in a really bad mood, hating my life. And there you were, trying to start a conversation with me, by bringing up some random topics. When I think about it, it was quite hilarious. You never stopped talking. Seconds later, I was eventually forced to be your friend. Never expected that we would’ve been besties after a second I found out that I met another version of me. It’s quite weird… our life is the same, our family is the same… and if I wanted I would continue but the list is extremely long for me to type.I remember I was soo EXCITED to finally meet another version of ME that I had to tell it to someone in my family 😀 . All I know was the fact my mom almost fainted. Not sure what was on my mom’s mind but our personality ain’t that horrible, right?
You sure made my day when you randomly asked me out, once school was done. I was expecting to see your face, next semester. But, I guess, I was wrong. I sure did love the adventures we got ourselves into. Eventhough, we got ourselves in trouble whether a sports car was stalking us (I was innocent :/ ) or the fact we waiting outside innocently in the rain when some random brown dude honked at us. But I did actually learned something important on that day, which was, that we had to scream as loud as you can and run. Not boxing his face. Remember the time we almost got chased by your neighbourhood dog. Or the fact that we actually got to meet a ghost (I did not steal its candy -_- …. I was lucky enough to get a free candy at the vending machine #smh). We sure did love to get ourselves in trouble.
I didn’t really know what to say when you kidnapped me from school just to eat doubles. Or the fact you took me into another city #smh. Thank god, my parent doesn’t know about this. Otherwise, I would have been grounded as usual #Meh. Believe it or not, you really know how to get me out of stuffs. Whether it was a situation that had been bothering for years. All the random stuffs you do to put a big smile on my face and laugh til tears come out. Well, no one hasn’t done that for me at all and even if they did. I didn’t really get to see them that much since they’re too busy. After doing a lot, I sure do wander if we had crossed each others path in this life.
Now that I’m on the end of this birthday letter/speech/ essay/ paragraph… whatever this thing is called. I just wanted to say that I would always love you as much as each wave touches the shore. I will always be by your side whether I’m normal or not. You will always be my Bestie, Butthead, Twin, Bunny, Lil Sis, Childhood Bestie and etc. Why do we have so many nicknames for each other? Oh wait, we’re cool like that.
Anyways, Happy, Happy, Happy Birthday!!!!
Hope you get spoiled with tons of love and presents as years pass by.
I know that you will choose the best and wise choices in life, as you’re an adult.
Now that we’re old we could go to Tim Horton and buy hot chocolate and a double chocolate 😛
p.s. I’m taking you out for a birthday treat once school is done. ❤
p.s.s.We seriously need to get a professional person to take our pics :/

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The Duchess Of Ceylon <3

After thinking A LOT, I decided to give myself a new makeover. Which meant, I had to delete A LOT of blog posts and change the settings for my blog. Wait, What? What’s going on and Why on earth would you do that!!! Well, Its actually a really, really, long story… As you can see, I felt that this blog wasn’t really me. So I decided to change the whole thing and do what I always wanted to do. Just like my close friends who tend to worry about me for numerous reasons would always say, “ Do what your heart say but don’t forget to bring your brain with you”. So here I am building a proper blog for myself and restarting my life like the way I had always planned. So here I am changing my blog name to Ajitha Kala to That Tamil Girl to The Duchess Of Ceylon. Its not weird, right? I’ve been always treated as a princess as a kid and I did enjoyed it. But as you get older, it tend to get extremely annoying. No matter how much you tried to be a bad girl or a rebel. The inner princess a.k.a the real you will do its best to come out. So here I am officially giving up on being something which I am not or will be in the future. I’ve gotten a lot of people worried cause I’ve been busy searching for the real me for the past ten years of my life. I guess, I got my life ordered since that’s the real me. So here I am planning to writing stuffs on my journal as I can’t wait publish these posts. Sigh, I’m gonna wait here at my castle as my best friend comes to kidnap me, as usual. Til then I hope I didn’t give anyone trouble with the sudden changes 😛

Who Knew….

Today for the first time, I’m going to pour out my feelings into this blog. I was looking through my messages on Facebook. I realized that my Ex best friend HK is on Facebook back.  My Ex Best friend loves to deactivate her Facebook because she told me that it was some sort of distraction. This caused her to deactivate her Facebook. But as a long as they know that Facebook is distracting, I’m good. As I went to her profile, to post something on her wall. I realized that she and I am no longer friend. She was known to be the best friend a.k.a big sis to look up to. She was dealing with a lot of issues. But I was there for her and she was there for me. When she first came to high school, we became friends. We could say that she was a hyper Punjabi person. I didn’t chilled with her because she had friends of her own. When we were in grade 10, we became best friends. We were so close that I knew her life/problems and she knew mines. Before we graduated from high school, she wrote and told me a lot of nice things that I can never forget. We thought that we would be there for each other when we were older. But times, changes. During college, she won’t talk to me as much as she used to. She hardly was there for me when I was actually there for her. I knew something was wrong. So, I called her but she hung the phone on me. Who knew this would actually happen. So I called my friend Abigail (a.k.a model and also tried out to become Miss Teen Canada) and told her my issues with her. She told me that she was dealing with issues and I should leave her alone, for a while. It was hard at first but I did as told. As days passed, my Best Friend started to talk to me during Christmas. She had a thing of writing long messages to me. Some of her messages makes me a bit emotional because she had the amazing things to tell me. Then she stopped talking and messaging to me again. It’s really annoying .But once I got an iPod app that allows people to msg me while I’m not on Facebook or Hotmail .I started texting her…

Ajitha: hey I got a phone so if you want to talk to me, text me on this number

HK: hey, who is this?

Ajitha: it’s Ajitha

She never replied.

Three weeks later….

Ajitha: hey what’s up?

Hk: who is this?

Ajitha: it’s me Ajitha :p

She never replied.

I had a feeling that there was something wrong with her but I never stopped .Cause when a friend needs help…we have to be there.

Ajitha: If you don’t want any me to be there for you, just say it so I will know that you don’t need help at all. And I could stop worrying about you.

HK: who are u?

Ajitha: it’s Ajitha

She never replied back and I stopped helping .Couldn’t believe that I wasted my time to help her. I minded my own business and tried making it better by being with the friends who was there for me. It’s been three months that we hadn’t talked. Later on, I realized that she and I are not friends anymore .I was heartbroken. She told me that she would be my side when I need her and I’ll be by her side. This just ruined my day. I have no words to say but tears. There was a lot of confusion within me. Was I the unperfected one or was there something wrong with me. There was so much going in my head. My best friend Aszee told me that it’s her loss. This made me realize that a lot of people accept me for being me. But in this situation, I’m sooo confused. Maybe, it’s the stories and problems that we share.

Just because we are no longer friends doesn’t mean I will forget the great memories, I had. Will I ever talk to her or forgive her. The answer will be no. But the problem with me is that I forgive easily and also feel pity for someone, who was actually there for me (in my life).I won’t know and do not want to know. I think I’m going to move on in life. As I went to my room to put away the cards and presents, she gave me. I saw my favorite teddy bear, which she bought me, for my birthday. I was debating to myself as usual. Should I just put away my teddy bear and put in a box, somewhere in the basement .That I will never search for. I don’t know if this is normal but I’m really attached to this teddy bear.

I’m going to move on. I’m going to enjoy life and forget about the past or maybe this day. It was like if someone stabbed me in the heart. I was so hurt that I didn’t know what to do. As long, I know that I have loving friend who are there for me. I should be good. I don’t know where I would be with Abigail wisdom and Aszee cheerful thoughts.

If I had to be honest with you, I don’t like sharing my sorrows and loss to the whole world. But when my siblings need help and I’m not there (on earth).They could always read through my blogs. So, they know how to handle this situation. It’s not, just them, it could be my relatives, family members, and friends and let’s not forget readers like you. I know that my advice may not be powerful but I hope people get an idea on what I’m saying.

 

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